Thanks for trusting my sewing skills on yesterday’s post! I was SO sure the belt was going to be a nightmare to make, but I was kind of surprised by how relatively easy it came together. I didn’t think I could sew the faux leather with my sewing machine and there was no way I was going to do it by hand. I tried a very large needle on the machine and it worked great!
I will post pictures of it tomorrow. I will (try) to paint it darker. For what I had to work with, and in this difficult period of time, I’m pretty happy with it.
Anyway, I sound more and more like a broken record every week when I do the Wednesday Weigh-In… “I wanted a good week, I’m trying, it’s hard, blah blah blah.” And today is no different. I have struggled so hard with sugar cravings and it started so long ago (literally right after I wrote a post about how eating sugar triggers my cravings). Once the sugar is out of my system, I feel great and it’s easy not to eat it. It gets to that point — which takes about four days — that’s killer.
This week has been especially rough and I caved and ate more Oreos than I care to admit. (It was that Reddit post I shared recently that made me think of Oreos!) I *know* I shouldn’t be doing this. I *know* it just makes the cravings a million times worse. It’s nothing new to me… but I just couldn’t say no!
I have avoided the scale and actually chose not to weigh myself today. I know avoiding the number isn’t going to change anything — it is what it is — but I just didn’t want to. My jeans feel really tight so I know I’ve gained weight. At this size, even a few pounds are very noticeable on my clothes.
The part that bothers me the most, though, is how I feel. Even if the scale hasn’t moved, I just don’t *feel* good about the way I’m eating.
What am I going to do about it? Just keep trying. I won’t be buying any more Oreos. My main focus will be getting the sugar out of my system. I just want to stop craving it, and the only way to do that is to go without for a while. And hopefully this time I will have learned my lesson for good. (How many times have I said this?) I had no idea how hard it would be to stop the cycle.
My mood was good, thankfully! The food is not for emotional reasons and I don’t overeat. I just craved sweets in a horrible way. I know what the problem is and I know how to fix it… I just need the discipline to DO IT. I know it’s in there somewhere, so now I just have to find it.
In the past few weeks, I’ve also stopped some of the habits I was working on (most of which I still do) and want to get back to following them like before. I still run every morning and I think that helps keep my spirits up. I’ve settled into a great morning routine.
Now, I’d like to implement the other habits into the routine with a little more planning through “habit stacking.” Habit stacking (which I learned about in the Atomic Habits book) is where you do the new habit either right before or right after another established habit). I’ve found that the habits I’ve kept are the ones I’ve accumulated.
Having a routine is super helpful with my eating habits as well, so hopefully that will help me get through the rough patches when I’m craving Oreos (or other sweets).
Anyway, I had promised myself a long time ago that I wouldn’t miss two weekly weigh-ins in a row, so I’ll weigh in next week no matter what. Maybe keeping that in mind will be what I need this week 😉