Last week, I had such high hopes that I would start this post off by saying that I had a much better week in terms of my eating habits. Unfortunately, this is not the case.
I know exactly what happened and wrote a whole post about it: “A lesson in weight maintenance“. I wrote that I’ve learned over the last year or so how my body reacts to certain foods. Sugar, for example, makes me crave more sugar. Even the tiniest amount can trigger cravings that feel insatiable. And last for days!
The hard part is getting back to the balanced feeling where I have no cravings. To get there, I have to abstain from sweets for about four days — sounds simple enough, right? Well, the cravings get so bad that trying to get through four days is extremely difficult. I know I can do it, but it sure isn’t easy.
I also learned (only more recently) that overeating has a big effect on my body the next day. I hadn’t overeaten in a long time – a few months – and one night, I ate until I was really full. I don’t even remember what it was, but I hated this feeling of being so full. I had no idea it was going to affect me the way it did the next day.
I woke up feeling like I had a hangover. I haven’t had a drink in 975 days now, but I don’t think I’ll ever forget what a hangover feels like. I was incredibly hungry and my stomach felt like a bottomless pit. And I craved greasy food! It reminded me of college when my roommates and I would go to McDonald’s the morning after a night of drinking.
This feeling lasted throughout the day and I realized that this was the first time I had gone this long without overeating, and in doing so, my body just wasn’t happy with me at all. What’s hard is that I had a huge appetite (even though I knew it wasn’t true hunger) and it’s hard not to eat when I feel so hungry.
For the past few weeks, I’ve been struggling with these — what do I call them? — the effects of overeating as well as sugar consumption. I’m desperate to get back to the neutral state I was in before, where I didn’t have the urge to overeat or eat sweets.
Another side effect of overeating was that my energy level dropped. My morning runs feel harder and I have to push myself harder during the day. I had never noticed that before. All my life, I ate sweets quite regularly, so I never knew what would happen if I didn’t eat them for a long time. (These discoveries were really exciting for me.)
Last week, I logged my food for a few days, just to see how many calories I was eating. I wasn’t trying to limit because I was really curious. I wasn’t surprised to see it was around 2,500 a day. I knew I was eating too much. Before, I was probably eating about 1,800 to 2,000 a day and felt much better.
As for my weight, I’m right at the high end of my maintenance range.
So far, I’m lucky my weight hasn’t continued to climb, but I’m definitely noticing a difference in how I feel (and how my clothes fit). I would like to focus on getting back to eating comfortably in the way my body feels best. And over the last year, I’ve learned SO much about what makes my body feel better! Eat regular sized portions, no sweets, high in fiber and plenty of fruit. (I think fruit helps curb sugar cravings, but it doesn’t have the effect on my body that refined sugar does.)
I’ve been doing really well the last couple of days, and once I get through a few more, I’ll start to feel like I’m on the right track again. Fingers crossed 😉